No period yet and of course I’m not pregnant. I read that I’ll have to wait 3 cycles and will then have a 50% chance… the average is like 6 to 12 months and that’s just for normal women, with my black and white spotted ovaries *sigh*. I know this, I do and frankly I’m not eager, I’m not. Just knowing that it’s gonna be harder for me than everyone else pisses me off. Everytime someone goes oh, so and so is pregnant… it’s like a tighting at the pit of my tummy, I can’t really explain it. I think it’s something along the lines… wanting but not just yet, being scared cos it might never happen and then facing the blame cos you waited too long or someting.
I know it’s silly. I tell you getting off the pill is nastier than I thought. My homones are going crazy. I cried at Beyonce’s Like a Man the bit “I’ll listen to her/ cos I know how it hurts/ when you lose the one you wanted cos he’s taking your for granted”. I know how that feels and I started thinking about two of my friends and tears, sobbing and I was like wtf… and stopped. * heh* Oh and my skin, ohmygawd… it’s horrible, it got so oily and I broke out, 2 pimples on my poor nose!! 2 grrrr!! A week later and my skin is so dry it hurts. I do miss Yasmin.
Ok, I’m done whining, I can’t see the gyne till I get my period, with my luck I’ll get it just in time for my work event. Blah.
