The nightmares have stopped, I believe they stopped when I wrote about them, spooky no? I’m feeling less tired and just in general it doesn’t feel like I’m pregnant till I look at my expanding tummy. The gyne’s visit is next Friday and I know that both of us can’t wait… it’s like a monthly peep show.
I have been thinking a lot more these days… about what kinda mother I’ll be. I love LOVE my Mom, but I don’t want to raise my child the way she raised me. My Mom’s pretty innocent and she raised me the way she thought was right (which was I made me own decisions since I was 6) and learnt from mistakes and applied changes to Christian then learnt from there and applied the lessons learnt from both of us to John. When I think back… I could have gotten into loads of trouble, I was just ‘fortunate’ enough to have friends and classmates who made mistakes before I did and I learnt from them!! That being said, life is about making mistakes while you’re still young and can get out of it relatively unscathed right? Sigh. I feel like doing a mission statement, keep myself & R on the right track no matter that life throws at us…. but who reads their company’s mission statements and applies them anyways?
Mine would be something like this….
- To always have self-respect and know one’s self-worth
- To always be kind to all animals, reptiles and insects (not including roaches and ants) and those less fortunate
- Learn a life skill, enjoy a hobby, love the great outdoors
- Know your parents will always have your back (even when they hackle you for being “emo”, a wuss or a nerd)